Well...it seems I can't sleep. I gave my wife a hard time on the phone because she informed me that our time together next weekend would have to be cut short for a day. Once she arrives I will have not seen her for almost two weeks and it was two weeks before that when we spent time together. I don't mean to be a baby here (but I guess I am). We are newlyweds and have to live apart until May. I had no idea that I would have such a hard time with this. AND...here she is working her ass off to finish law school and I'm being a baby.
So...I can't sleep cause I'm pissed, lonely, and an idiot! I'm sure she doesn't need for me to act this way. I've been trying to be supportive, but today was just not my day for being a good guy.
So...here I am in my stew....thinking about honoring myself and my marriage by trying to manifest some good in my life. My career life has been sucking for some time and it's time to change that. I've spent the last hour coming up with ideas that may help me grow and take some chances, cause the decisions I have made in the past to stay safe have turned into doo doo.
I have tremendous talents...that I am sure of...BUT I can't seem to transform these talents into anything successful. My failures have become my abyss that strangles my soul. THAT has GOT to STOP!!!
Ok...I feel a little better now...I'm going to try and sleep......
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