mush, mush, mush

So....I'm possibly up for a job that requires some explaining. On one hand it would be my dream job at a place that I used to call home. What makes it dicy....the job would be to replace my old boss who is taking early retirement at just two weeks notice.
I left this place solely because of this woman's inappropriate behavior towards me. She made my life miserable in spades! When I left it took everyone there by utter surprise. I was well liked and known as a hard worker. Unfortunately, my repeated attempts to bring what was happening to the higher ups was met with disbelief. There was an amazing amount of reshuffling going on in management that seemed to make everyone's life difficult. In handling this issue they did two things: 1. hoped it would just go away 2. decided the best way to resolve this was to move us to desks right beside each other in a secluded room. Hmmmm....
I know I should have delt with this quite differently in hindsight. But...at the time...going thru a divorce from a 16 year marriage; my companion and best friend (my dog) had to be put to sleep with a sudden, rapidly moving illness that gave me no notice; having to move twice and fight for keeping my home (that I still can't afford, but it's mine), AND getting pneumonia because of all the stress; was just too much so I ran.

I know...whine, whine, whine....

Now it seems that, at minimum, something happened that has led to her quick departure. For that alone I am grateful. Being able to put the powers that be at ease about my departure so I can show how great I would be at this job is a bit daunting. I know that getting this job would be amazing for me. I absolutely love the place!! The down side would be poor pay and lots of unpaid overtime.

I dream of the day when I actually can be paid well for my hard work AND love what I do.
Right now....a great latte and a decent breakfast are waiting for me. I LOVE weekends!!! This one is not so great as it's the first weekend that my wife and I have been apart....awh....
Hey...remember I don't see her during the week cause she is in school in nyc....
I know, I know....WAY too much "whoa is me" today.

Has it been this long?

Yes...I have been remiss in posting for a very long time. I can't figure out whether it is just too overwhelming where to begin or I just can't focus on how to express myself freely to cyberspace.
My new wife and I are navigating our new life together (together for now is a long distance commute almost every week [for her] from NYC to Boston and back). The last year of law school is taking a toll on her and I just wished I could do something to help. The best I can do for now is listen, give her a back and foot massage whenever she needs one, and do my damnest to show her how amazing she is and how much I adore and admire her. She is quite amazing. She cooks, non-stop on the weekends, amazing meals for us both to have during the week. She understands that I am a guy who thinks about sex a lot, yet she doesn't make me feel guilty about it or chastise me for it. She knows instinctively when I have something weighing on me and without saying a word caresses my back, takes my hand, and gives me a look of "don't worry, you have me in your life". God...this is the most amazing person I've ever known.

Me..I'm poor and I can't help her financially, which is a burden she shouldn't have to bear in addition to her law studies, having to find a job to pay off loans as soon as school is out, AND having to pass two different Bar exams. Yet..she never complains. Never makes me feel guilty.

My job issues do get me down at times. I find myself compromising on my goals and dreams just cause I can't seem to get out of the job I have because it pays the bills and I have health insurance. I have been committed to restarting my teaching career which I had going back in the mid to late 90's and didn't take seriously because I wanted to be a performer. Matter of fact back then, I hated teaching. I found myself, after several 9-5 type jobs realizing that teaching had some really great benefits. You don't have to work as many hours because the per hour rate is high compared to 9-5 jobs (or at least the ones I can get). You end up with a lot more free time for your efforts, much of the summer off or at least at a lighter schedule. I am finding that I actually enjoy teaching.

My difficulty is in getting enough students going. I have ended up with one 4 hour day and working 4 days a week at my 9=5 type job (actually working 9-10 hour days) with a 60 mile commute each way. I also would like to start a website for lessons as well as another business I wish to pursue. All of this takes time and money which I don't have right now.

I find myself overwhelmed at times and don't know how to get going on getting myself out of this rut, careerwise.

Hey...that's it for now. Hopefully I will return sooner. Oh....I had a terrific dirty gin martini this weekend. Made it myself, thank you very much!