Has it been this long?

Yes...I have been remiss in posting for a very long time. I can't figure out whether it is just too overwhelming where to begin or I just can't focus on how to express myself freely to cyberspace.
My new wife and I are navigating our new life together (together for now is a long distance commute almost every week [for her] from NYC to Boston and back). The last year of law school is taking a toll on her and I just wished I could do something to help. The best I can do for now is listen, give her a back and foot massage whenever she needs one, and do my damnest to show her how amazing she is and how much I adore and admire her. She is quite amazing. She cooks, non-stop on the weekends, amazing meals for us both to have during the week. She understands that I am a guy who thinks about sex a lot, yet she doesn't make me feel guilty about it or chastise me for it. She knows instinctively when I have something weighing on me and without saying a word caresses my back, takes my hand, and gives me a look of "don't worry, you have me in your life". God...this is the most amazing person I've ever known.

Me..I'm poor and I can't help her financially, which is a burden she shouldn't have to bear in addition to her law studies, having to find a job to pay off loans as soon as school is out, AND having to pass two different Bar exams. Yet..she never complains. Never makes me feel guilty.

My job issues do get me down at times. I find myself compromising on my goals and dreams just cause I can't seem to get out of the job I have because it pays the bills and I have health insurance. I have been committed to restarting my teaching career which I had going back in the mid to late 90's and didn't take seriously because I wanted to be a performer. Matter of fact back then, I hated teaching. I found myself, after several 9-5 type jobs realizing that teaching had some really great benefits. You don't have to work as many hours because the per hour rate is high compared to 9-5 jobs (or at least the ones I can get). You end up with a lot more free time for your efforts, much of the summer off or at least at a lighter schedule. I am finding that I actually enjoy teaching.

My difficulty is in getting enough students going. I have ended up with one 4 hour day and working 4 days a week at my 9=5 type job (actually working 9-10 hour days) with a 60 mile commute each way. I also would like to start a website for lessons as well as another business I wish to pursue. All of this takes time and money which I don't have right now.

I find myself overwhelmed at times and don't know how to get going on getting myself out of this rut, careerwise.

Hey...that's it for now. Hopefully I will return sooner. Oh....I had a terrific dirty gin martini this weekend. Made it myself, thank you very much!